Holy Smokes...talk about running a million miles an hour these days. My mind is constantly flying and I'm surprised that I manage to sleep at all these days. I recently had a terrible night, I tossed and turned for hours and finally decided at 4am that the best thing that I could do for myself was to get out of bed and make a list of all the things that were floating around in my head that were causing all this sleeplessness. The list was long, I realised that over the past two years anything that was difficult has been getting relegated to the "take care of it when I have time" pile and things were quickly starting to add up. So I've been addressing all those items that have been being added to my list, slowly ticking things off and the feeling is so wonderful. I had forgotten what it was like to go a day without something in the back of your mind sounding alarm bells; it's such a wonderful thing to be checking things off my list.
The last month involved a lot of thought about my career and what I wanted to be doing. Although it wasn't an easy decision to make I've decided that the best thing that I can do for myself is to take a step back. For years I was an Executive Assistant and to be honest, I love the role. I love helping others and getting to know people and this role offers me an opportunity to operate within my comfort zone. I realised that for now, the greatest thing that I can give to myself is a healthy work-life balance, there will be time later for growing my career and trying new things. For now the priority should be my life and the lives of my little boys. We need time, lots of time, and I'm okay with that. So, starting Tuesday I'm back to a job that I love, helping people who I already know and respect and I'm glad that my life offers me opportunities from time to time for a "do over".
I'm grateful that this summer I've had lots of time to spend on the beach with my babies, and happy to spend some time just starting to get to know me a little better. By understanding myself better, I'll understand those around me better and slowly I'll keep travelling the path. I'm already having fun, I fully anticipate that it will continue to get better and better. Thanks for following everyone!